A tropical sunny day, good health and warm music. That’s what the outside world is, but deep inside I lay in my bed cloudy, eyes watery and my heart is stormy. Dark depression, memories of past holding me back not wanting me to enjoy what’s there outside. The past haunts like a lone tiger ready to dine.
But…. wait, this past which has chained me and locked me inside a cage. A cage of mirrored walls, reflecting past again, cannot hold me. I am determined to break it’s walls with my strong fists. This cage has got me for a long time, too long. It has been deceiving me with all the mystical moments. The moments of happiness, being loved and at last being deceived. It just now showed me a picture of me on horseback with a hood, it was a misty ride. I know how it ended. And …. another picture of me smiling behind a birthday cake and on and on…..
It’s time to stop this slide show. I am not going back. The past which is lost cannot be back. Tears will not make me time travel. I learnt it… in a hard way may be… but I learnt it. I am not going back inside that cage. Not again.
Let’s not be a prisoner of what happened. Let’s be the queen of what’s going to happen. I decided what’s the next picture in my slideshow. It’s not a picture with my ex but a picture of me happy in my own way.
I don’t belong to the past. I belong to the present and the glorious future to come. 😊 that’s my mantra…..
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